Madison and I only caught the end of the movie Wild, we watched maybe the last hour. We watched as the character hiked along the Northwest coast. She opened up a little about her life as she traveled; yet we saw her anguish over her wounded heart. When the movie ended, Madison shrugged said, “Well, I guess you had to see the beginning to get it."
The statement struck me, and my mind began to mull over his statement. As I thought about my life, the character’s life, and lives of most people, I realized you don't need to see the first part to understand that everyone goes on a journey in their lives.
I turned to Madison and replied, "Do we really need to know the past to know someone is on a journey or working to change their lives? It's obvious that she was on a pilgrimage to resolve some issues, to repent, and turn her life around. Does the details of someone's past really take away the knowledge that they are trying to become better?”
It made me think of my book. I went on looking out the window into the night, as I spoke. "I know it's human to want to know the details, the juicy pieces that tore a life apart, the sins that nearly crush, or completely crush a person. It's partly to compare our lives to another, to see if our sin was as bad or not. Or we want to feel like we are not alone, that our worthlessness is the same as another. We want to see if looking at another person’s horrible life can redeem us and compare ourselves to them. We question ourselves with things like: 'am I redeemable, is there hope, can I truly change?' But it shouldn't be that way. Scripture says there is nothing new under the sun. Therefore, every sin that could have ever been done has been. So your sin, his or her sin, and my sin is nothing new."
We shouldn’t, and scripture tells us not to, compare ourselves. Hurt is hurt. Only humans put a degree of hurt on things. The same can be said of sin. There is no degree of sin that is worse than another. However, if the details of my sin, my hurt, my journey helps someone to see that their sins are less than mine and therefore they personally are redeemable, or if someone feel that have walked in my shoes, and the details help find their path to repentance, redemption, forgiveness, and hope... then I will gladly share my past. But know you're worth redemption regardless! Regardless how awful, horrible, or despicable you may feel. I'm proof of that. My family is proof. My friends are proof. All those who follow Christ to the best of their ability are proof.
Everyone is worthy of redemption.